My Old Status in FB..

I checked my old FB account and I was surprised to see all these Status messages.. They're so much 'me'..
Here are those stats..


"‎...I hate being toyed. I know that I am not "goddamn gorgeous" and "oh-so-stunningly beautiful", but I think I don't deserve that kind of treatment..."


"Hindi ako nagpapanggap na hard-to-get. Kaya kapag hindi ako nagpakita ng interes sa isang tao, hindi talaga ako interesado sa kanya."


"Isang eksena sa aming inuupahang bahay..


Ezer: Steve, di ba ang bobo walang alam?
Steve: haha! Oo pare..
Ezer: Bobo ba ko, Steve?
Steve: Wahaha!! Oo!!
Ezer: Ah.. Alam ko. .
Steve: (Speechless)


hahaha!.."


"My life is full of bullshit pretensions..


So what?
e hindi nga ako natural!


...wala kang pakialam.
kaya wag mo kong pakialamanan."


"Kahit gaano karaming signs pa ang dumating o kaya ay matupad,
kung hindi ka niya mahal, HINDI KA TALAGA N'YA MAHAL..
[Signs-signs pa kasi..]"


"they say that the fruit of your labor tasted best when it is shared..
but for me, it's fine if you'll eat it yourself!"


"Don't rely on someone else for your happiness and self worth. Only you can be responsible for that. If you can't love and respect yourself - no one else will be able to make that happen. Accept who you are - completely; the good and the bad - and make changes as YOU see fit - not because you think someone else wants you to be different."


"Babae kami.. Dapat samin nilalambing, minamahal at iniintindi..
Hindi kami pinipikon, inaasar, ginigisa at pinapagalitan sa marahas na paraan.
Itatak mo sa isip at puso mo na ang babae, kahit anong ikot at baligtad ng mundo, babae pa rin.
At ang babae dapat tinitreat sa pinaka-special na paraan..
Kahit sino pa s'ya..
Kahit ano pa itsura n'ya.."


I realized that I became a real bitchy, rude, hard, frank, emo, heartless, self-centered and indepent once.. Ako mismo, nabilib ako sa attitude ko nung nagising na ako at nakita na innately devilish pala talaga ang bawat tao..
Then after a few months, here I am, the output of those wounded lines.. Hindi na ako ganun katigas ang ugali ko compared sa attitude ko before, but somehow, yung karamihan sa natutunan ko sa tragic experience ko ay naaapply ko until now.. Parang di ko na kayang ibalik ang ugali ko dati.. Yung dating ako na super idealistic, imaginative, selfless, naive, optimistic, loving, sensitive, enthusiastic and naniniwala sa forever..


Ang dami kong natutunan sa naging ako dahil sa mga stats na yan.. I think dapat kong iapply tong ganitong ugali, para palagi akong maging strong.. Para wala nang makapanakit sa kin..