Happiness Starts Here

My mind has been so busy thinking about the future this past few weeks. Since I was forced to follow my Mom's orders and stay here at Tarlac, bitter thoughts and depressions gradually disturbed me. I let all the negative emotions crawl inside my heart and tears became my instant companion. The feeling of having no freedom to decide for myself is a poison that kills me little each day. Sadly,this poison worked.
Then one Tuesday night, while I was sleeping, I dreamt of something strange. It was about to rain. Clouds are heavy, wind is so strong and the feeling of danger in everywhere. Then, the dark scenario disappeared, in the midst of darkness, I saw myself, keeling and crying with my eyes closed. Then the sound of the fierce wind and roaring thunders slowly faded away.
I felt the tears rolled down my cheeks as I woke up. That dream was obviously a reminder from Above. God is so humble to make the first move by calling my attention in the most gentle way I can imagine. I felt ashamed that the moment I opened my eyes, I immediately kneeled down and asked for His forgiveness. More tears ran down as I thanked Him for all the things that He did for me. And even if i didn't hear His voice, I know in my heart that He accepted me once again.
It seems like everything changed after I prayed. I'm still crying, but this time, I can say that these are tears of joy. I'm so overwhelmed and I can't stop thanking Him. All the bitterness and sadness were swept away by His love. What happened that night was indeed magical.
Sometimes we tend to ignore the most important things in our lives because of the problems that we encounter. Some of us lose our hopes and some are trying to find the answers on things that, they think, can give them the happiness that all of us are trying to find. Well, everyone is entitled to search for it, but not everyone is lucky to have it.
Pause for a moment and ask yourself when was the last time you talked to Him. If you can't remember, then you are starting to lose the right path. Learn to ask for His guidance and forgiveness, and all things will fall into its rightful places.

Prayer - Happiness starts here.

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