Heartless
Tryin' to revive what we had before
But still you're looking for so much more
Why can't I hit that fucking core
God, this'so painful
Thinking our mem'ries with a little weep
It kills me but you can still sweep me off my feet
Mourning night and day and I can hardly breathe
It's still painful
You can stand seeing me this way
You don't care on whatever I say
You're still ok even if I'm dying each day
'Know what? you're heartless.
What If?
Dumbness entered my veins
As these weird thoughts came crashin' through my mind
Reminiscing those simple mingles
Longing for undefined fragments left aside..
Saying "I love you" is not in his lips
Sweetness is not seen in his acts
He doesnt know how to show his feelings
But he did love me, I'm sure of that.
I'm always in a hurry
I don't know how to wait
He's so slow and I can't help it,
To siliently whisper "it's too late"..
But what if I did not rush things?
What if I let his feelings grow..
Will I ever know what these "what if's" mean,
Will he embrace me and not let me go..
Nostalgia
Nostalgia
Here I am
Empty and bare
Longing for the same sweetness of esctasy that I licked yesterday
Killing myself by reminiscing the times that I clinched my long arms into your neck
Holding on to the things that wont happen again
I don't know how to stop this insanity that my head's screamin
Though "we" and "us" doesn't exist anymore
Maybe there really is no solution in this frustration that I feel
Maybe I'm destined to be addicted to you and to this damn nostalgia.
Meaningless
Clever whispers
Naive stares
Whooming Talks
Delightful Glares
Clinging Arms
Gentle Hands
Quiet Walks
Floating Lands
What are those
What are we
I don't know,
Nothing, maybe..
Excruciating Compliance
Longing for heavens but living on fire
Crying inside for obeying my sire
Embracing the hell, I'm craving for wire
Said, "Yes, my highness" with frozen desire.
The roads are wide but he's blocking my way
Keep pulling my arms, forcing me to stay
Tearing me up, every night, every day
Sending me in gloom where the skies are gray
My beloved sire, oh, why can't it be?
My thoughts and desire are all you can't see
If loving's a sin, the sinner is thee
For I am in love, yet, you've forbidden me.
Obscure
sketchy plans
lazy blanks
empty glance
blindness.
gloomy minds
grieving eyes
weaker hopes
nullness.
crashing nerves
mourning lives
blurry lights
voidness.
kissing deaths
quiet loss
now what's next?
nothing.